The ground beneath III: The fog isn't a mistake
A reflection on confusion, inner authority, and learning to move without certainty.
This piece was written from inside a moment of confusion. I didn’t plan for it to be part of this series, but it became one of the most authentic reflections of what it truly means to walk the soul path without a plan, a map, or a fixed direction. Because this path is not only about the big questions in life—it lives in the everyday choices that invite us to go deeper each time we find ourselves in the fog again.
The path of the soul is not linear, not logical, there is no clear ‘7 steps to enlightenment’ path and no bullet point list of results.
Sometimes—like this week—I wish those things would exist. Because really, it would make my work easier to explain, write about, and offer.
I’m heavy in Air. I crave to understand, love structure and logic. That’s also why I’m SO into astrology. Because it’s not just some divine downloads from a self-proclaimed guru. It’s mathematical, precisely calculated, it has rules and order. It explains the cosmic rhythms. And it gives language to what is otherwise only felt.
Side not: Did you know that I studied controlling in my 20ies? I started out with Marketing, but realized quickly that there was no real script to follow and then switched into controlling. Not that I am proud about this choice, but if you know me today, it’s a fun fact about me.
But back to the topic, because that’s NOT how soul works. Soul is what you can’t grasp. It’s our ever existing essence—beyond the body, beyond the mind.
And that’s just another reason why our western society is so struggling with the concept of soul and incarnation. It’s too vague, too woo woo.
And who can prove that soul exists?
Walking that path requires you to trust your inner knowing more than outer proof.
As I was sitting with my own confusion today—about what to write, where to continue, how to move on—and so I decided to write about why confusion shows up so regularly on this path and the gifts it holds for us.
Because while it sucks, there’s always a deeper invitation coming with confusion.
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The why
When we walk the path of the soul, we go beyond the logic of the mind.
We acknowledge that the mind is an excellent instrument, but we also understand that mind should not be the boss of the team.
And so we tend to deeper layers, deeper truths.
We ask: how does this make me feel? What do I need now? What would feel good as a next step? What have I intuitively noticed but doesn’t make sense? What kind of synchronicities have been repeatingly showing in my life recently?
Those are very personal questions. There is no right or wrong to it. (And that’s exactly why I studied controlling, because there was a right or wrong: either you get the same number on both sides of the scales, or you made a mistake.)
To answer these questions, you have to know yourself. You have to be in touch with yourself. You have to notice the body cues, the intuitive hits, the waves of emotions flowing through the body.
And honestly, while this should be a given, most people struggle with this.
I know it from myself, from my clients, from family and everybody who was in the NeuroEmbodied Soul Centering Training with me—most people have lost touch with the voices of their body and intuition. And it takes practice, de-conditioning and self-trust to come back to it.
And as a result, as we walk that path of homecoming, of soul, we get confused. Because we never learnt those sacred languages. And because there are no universal answers, there are no clear guidelines.
It’s on you to figure out.
The lived reality: my personal fog
Of course there are the big questions in life like, ‘what is my purpose’, ‘should I marry this guy or not’ etc. But the longer you walk the path, the more it’s in the nuances. I’ll share two of my own examples here, to make this more practical.
Putting the results of soul work into words
I’m about to launch my first group course REMEMBER soon. It’s about reconnecting to your soul and it’s calling through the birth chart and the body. I’ve done this work for years and it changed my life completely—and I mean completely—I can’t even vaguely remember or imagine how Rahel 10 years ago felt. I’ve done this work with 1:1 clients—but there is no clear starting point and end point. It depends on where you are and who you are.
So I wanted to write about the quiet results of soul work this week. And I knew right away it was an overwhelm. Because really there are thousands of shifts. Of course you feel more aligned, satisfied, on purpose. You get clarity, direction. You know yourself better and deeper. Eventually you become more confident, you know where your growth edges are. And so much more. And maybe even reading this feels like a lot—because it is.
And the thing is, some might be important for you and others not. So where to start? What should be the leading flag? How to quantify something that is so nuanced, so individual, so tender?
Maybe I know better after the first round of REMEMBER. But for now, I had to give up on it this week. Because it put me into a state of not moving forward. Of feeling stuck and unclear and everything. Gosh, I don’t like that, I want to be productive. I feel like I’m off the track, as if something deep needs to be addressed so I can move forward again.
Being vs doing—or, when to act and when to wait
As I sat with this confusion in writing, another well known old friend came to visit. What to do now? Push through, or wait? And what does that look like? Endless journaling? Meditation? Walking away from the project and hoping to come back with clarity? Focusing on something different? Doing admin instead of writing? Or is this then distraction? More resting?
After a week in bed with back paint I was eager to come back—can I give myself permission to rest more? Or is this then procrastination? And will it move me forward at all? I’m torn between pushing through and doing nothing. Both feel not right.
I’m sure at least some of you, if not all, know this monologue too. I know it very well. And I find that there is no right answer on how to deal with this. It depends again on who you are—are you tending to being too lazy or too driven? And where you are—are you in a season of life where it’s about boldly moving forward, or are you re-calibrating, or planting new seeds, or even letting go?
It’s complex. And even though I know those things about myself, I am always refining. I personally believe the conditioning of working/productivity = being valuable is one of the hardest to get out of the system.
Before we go deeper into the invitation, what about you? How does confusion show up for you? What’s one place in your life that currently feels foggy or hard to name?
The invitation
What I’ve learnt over the years is: when we move through the fog, there’s always a deeper invitation behind it.
In astrology, the planet Neptune is related to confusion. But it is also related to ideals, visions, escapism and spirituality.
So when there is confusion, it’s a call to not escape but to tend to spirit, to the unseen, to intuition.
The challenge is to defy logic and trust what feels alive, true and good—even though it doesn’t make sense.
Maybe you think that you are not ready yet. Or you must finish A to move on to B. But if A feels blocked or unclear and B is calling, then that’s your call to move on and do the illogical thing.
Some things that help me when confusion hits (love that I manage to integrate a bullet point list here):
Going on a walk and speaking it all out on a voice note (yes I feel awkward doing this, but it’s really good. If you walk past someone, just pretend you are on the phone or pause for a moment)
Light yoga to get the breath flowing again
Pulling tarot cards, a direct way to access higher guidance
Consulting my astrological transits and see what’s happening there. Maybe there is Pluto asking to transform something, or Saturn is blocking, or Neptune is confusing.
Journal through the 5 intelligences to separate conflicting voices and access your deeper knowing (If you’re curious about that process, you can download my free Inner Clarity Workbook here)
And here’s the most important point of this article:
All these practices do not only lift the fog, they also bring you a step closer to yourself.
And that’s the path of homecoming.
That’s the path of individuation.
That’s the soul path.
It’s about navigating the fog not because you are lost, but because you trust yourself more than the general sign posts along the way.
I’d love to hear your thoughts on this: what confuses you? What’s hard for you? What helps? If anything wants to come through, no matter how non-linear, I’d love to read it 🧡
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